tuna melt tuesday...

Today is a work from home day for me, so I decided to make myself something for breakfast rather than swinging by the Starbucks or McDonalds. I'm rooting through my cabinets and fridge and we have all the usual breakfast fare, eggs, bacon, sausage, cinnamon rolls in the tube... Then, it hit me, tuna melt, I have no idea why it sounded so good at 6 am in the morning, but I had to have it. Just tuna salad, white bread, cheese and pickles. Mmmmm... Then, it got me to thinking after I had devoured half of it post haste, it's gotta be the baby, I mean seriously, who craves tuna at 6am that doesn't work graveyard.

Food's become a pretty big part of my thinking lately, I keep thinking about all the food I wish I could eat. And how much I enjoyed double stuffed oreos last time around. I've got to look up online and see when the food cravings start because it's pretty damn early still and I think it might all be anticipation, lol.

Speaking of food, my friend and I are going to the Sunshine Cafe today by UCD Med Center, they have some rockin' Korean food, and today is shrimp spring roll day, mmmm... I'm gonna Yelp it at some point soon. I'm totally falling behind with my Yelp reviews, I need to get on that.

Office xmas par-tay

Forced social situation barely covers the kind of awkwardness I experienced today at my office holiday party. I'm not going to say it was as bad as that episode of the Office where they have a 'Yankee Swap' well folks, we too had a Yankee Swap. It was I don't know, horrible. Just watching people evaluating an objects worth in front of the whole group, is just totally lame. We also had to take a holiday quiz, and wouldn't you know it, the chair of the holiday party committee won... shocker there. I think I got like two things right, and I was so not in the mood to deal with a quiz. I don't think anyone was, it was just not fun to say the least. The food was good. We went to BJ's Brewery, and no one really drank anything. It was an all you can eat buffet type thing, but they brought out this desert, it was a giant cookie with ice cream, and the cookie... well it was pretty much raw in the middle, but the rest of the food was totally ok.

I really do like my coworkers, and we had a blast last year, a total blast, and it wasn't that expensive either, this year it cost me a total of like $26 to go. I'm not complaining, but seriously $26 to take a quiz, and Yankee Swap? Ok so I am complaining. I appreciate the amount of work that went into planning everything it just seems like what we wanted vs. what certain people wanted vs. what the collective wanted. It's always hard to plan a party, so I do give them kudos for planning it.

So then, I went home. And now I'm home, free to knit and watch TV in peace.

So... I have news I have news!

Wow... ok so we're expecting. It seems like everyone's so optimistic, and I'm sort of not, in fact, I'm just praying that everything is alright. We didn't have the best luck last time, or the times before that, so we're hoping that it's our time, that we've really finally been blessed with another little baby.

I feel pregnant, really pregnant, I'm exhausted, I've got huge boobs, and my pants are feeling kinda tight, lol. I guess the thing is that we're just waiting for bad news, that we would love to be super excited and 100% happy but we've just been let down so many times before, it would be nice to just be able to be happy and not super worried.

So I had my first OB appointment, well it was just the OB nurse, and she gave me the 'folder' and the 'box' of baby stuff, and I kept thinking to myself, wow, she thinks everything is ok. I wish I could be like that, I kept my concerns to myself and just sort of nodded and got out of there. Mike came with, though I suppose he didn't need to, except for the fact that he is a way better parker than I am, and it's a totally crappy parking lot over there. Ok ok, back on track, I had to go get my blood drawn downstairs, and this lady stabbed the crap out of my arm, I look like a junkie now! Seriously, my arm is all bruised like I'm a drug addict, real attractive you know...

I have my next appointment soon enough, and I'll get my ultrasound and see if it's an actual viable pregnancy. We're just praying everything is ok, yeah I know I sound like a broke record huh? So this friday, we'll find out. Lets hope the next post is a happy one :)